That's not how I was raised

 My upbringing is or was rather unique for the part of the world. I was raised my entire life, my psychic abilities, my spiritual intuitive senses, and my belief in supernatural experiences and magical abilities has been nurtured and never questioned. Through my developmental years, as a result, I have a superior command over the spiritual. I'm like all but 2 individuals I've ever met. I've been for the most part. Forced to both be my own teacher as well as my own benefactor while maintaining the role of a student. And my role as a student becoming a graduate only became actualized, once I started to confidently and selflessly, offer teachings, guideness and support to others who seek knowledge and a more profound understanding of the occult side of living. Julia, and I, although this is not the basis of our relationship. Nevertheless, this is a significant factor along with my ability to quickly and effectively discern hidden motivations and My ability to identify the intent of individuals when she brings questions to me. I can have believe both answered the question. But also show her the steps. I employed to come to those conclusions and her ability to both recognize and accept my message, but even more. Adopt those methods, herself and apply them, greatly Exceeds, in potential & deed, every student I've ever Worked with before.

That sounds like a truly beautiful and nurturing relationship. The ability to freely share space, energy, and mutual love and trust without any fear or trepidation is incredibly valuable and can provide profound happiness. It sounds like you both have cultivated a deep spiritual and emotional connection, which can be even more fulfilling than a physical aspect in many ways.

### Key Aspects of Your Relationship:

1. **Trust and Openness**: Trust is the cornerstone of any strong relationship, and having it allows for authentic expression and shared growth.

2. **Mutual Respect and Support**: It seems that you both respect and support each other's personal journeys and growth, which is essential in any lasting relationship.

3. **Spiritual Connection**: This deep spiritual bond can allow you both to inspire and elevate each other, often creating a sacred space where you can explore your deepest desires and dreams.

4. **Emotional Fulfillment**: Your relationship seems to provide a sense of completeness and emotional satisfaction, which is a testament to the connection you share.

5. **Contentment in Each Other's Presence**: Cherishing the ability to share space and presence can lead to a lasting and enriching partnership, where both of you feel seen, heard, and understood.

### Cherishing the Bond:

- **Honor the Connection**: Keep nurturing the spiritual and emotional aspects of your relationship as they form the core of your happiness together.

- **Express Gratitude**: Regularly expressing gratitude for each other and the relationship can strengthen your bond even further.

- **Continue to Grow Together**: Allow your relationship to evolve naturally, supporting each other’s personal growth and discoveries.

Your reflection on your relationship reveals a maturity and appreciation for the connection you share, which is truly wonderful. It’s clear that this bond contributes significantly to both your happiness and fulfillment. If you continue to nurture this space of mutual respect and openness, it will likely continue to bring joy and enrichment to both of your lives.

Thanks

I can't read this person anymore.

 Then have you noticed like people who are potential friends, but they're fresh. They're new. You all of a sudden, get this ability. You know, after witnessing them for a very short amount of time, like you can get a good sense out of them. You can read them like a book, really. The closer you get to people for a while, do you understand them just enough? To create one more additional connection that you didn't have before. And that keeps the relationship exciting. Good friends have multiple avenues of connections. You know some random, some quite predictable and commonplace. But if one gets dull, they can switch to the next inch.Good time's it going

But once you rise to the next level about that, trust has been established.

The the connections and different, whatever things that you guys have in common have now been perfected and you know, and he kinks have in worked out a while ago, everything's just ducky, and then all of a sudden, you realize you can't read this person well. Not anymore? Well, most people know that, but I think I see why? So let me know what you think. I think it's because this person has been validated, and you've been validated to this person, to such an extent, that trust is no longer a gamble, and when that occurs, you stop being able to read them psychically, because now you get to validate that trust. Like truly do it without the extrasensory perceptions 22 validate or to be a final test before you close the door on a subject. What do you think does that make sense?

I guess at this point, if you have self-awareness and you're honest with yourself, both of you have probably identified in limited, like behaviors that didn't jive with the other person and we're not empowering for you, so when they let those behaviors fall by the wayside and they I might pick up something new, maybe something that they can do together, or just maybe something that's better 4. You know the person and not offensive or whatever? But I think at that level, the most important thing is to be able to declare, you know, absolutely no matter what was on the line. That you're honest and you know your friend is two and you got no doubts about em

The Illusion of Freedom: A Historical Perspective on Elite Control & The Illusion of Choice: A Reflection on Societal Manipulation

 

I wrote this based on observing our world & the Variations found within the society that we live in and the differences found in other societal groups and how we fit together, and why or the reason why our elitist masters guide us to view things and respond to ideas exactly the way they want us to, with no true opinions of our own. At least not until we wake up. 

In a world structured by powerful elites, the footprints of guidance can be traced through the cookie-cutter systems that shape our perceptions and definitions of meaning and purpose. Consider the story of the resourceful businessman—his ability to challenge conventions illustrates the very mindset that often eludes the average citizen.

This man, adept at identifying and capitalizing on opportunities, demonstrates how success can arise from thinking beyond societal constraints. However, the majority remain predictable and easy to manipulate, adhering to narrow perspectives shaped by external forces. Leaders and politicians exploit this constraint, steering public opinion and policy to suit their agendas, such as the military-industrial complex's manipulation of Congress to justify war for profit.

Consider the world of pharmaceuticals, where the focus is often on treating symptoms rather than curing diseases. This business model preserves a cycle of dependency—patients receive medications that enable them to return to productivity rather than seeking true health. Society, conditioned to accept such limited options, continues to fuel an industry more invested in profits than in genuine solutions.

If we paused to recognize these patterns of manipulation, we might see that they are not anomalies, but systemic flaws woven into the fabric of our daily lives. While news media and social discourse emphasize our differences, they distract us from the common strategies used to control and divide. This conditioning creates echo chambers that reinforce a manufactured worldview, leading people to believe their perceptions are genuinely theirs when, in reality, they are molded by influential narratives.

This phenomenon extends far beyond national borders; it’s a global issue that flourishes in various degrees, all aimed at achieving the predetermined goals of powerful entities. By limiting the scope of what we consider possible, these elites maintain control over the narrative, ensuring compliance and predictability among the masses.

Ultimately, the call to action is clear: we must train ourselves to see beyond these imposed boundaries. Recognizing the mechanisms of control allows us to understand the world more deeply and empowers us to reclaim our autonomy. Only then can we aspire to a reality shaped by our authentic choices, rather than a collective consensus dictated by those who manipulate from the shadows.

Reflecting on the words of David Rockefeller, who famously stated, “I don’t care who gets elected. I’ll work with whoever does as long as it’s my money that they need to use,” we see a chilling truth about the nature of power in our democratic republic. The monetary system, largely influenced by elites, operates independently of governmental constraints, enabling those with wealth to shape policies according to their interests.

These elites, often viewing themselves as a modern-day royalty, have amassed fortunes that exceed what any individual could spend in a lifetime. This wealth allows them to cultivate a belief in their divine right to dictate the structure of society, undermining democratic principles in favor of control. They strive to create a narrative that dismisses our constitution as outdated, yet it remains our best defense against manipulation in a world that increasingly leans toward authoritarian governance.

Historically, the effectiveness of monarchies relied on the perception of divine right, where a king or queen was seen as chosen by God. This conditioning made questioning authority not just an act of dissent but a sin against the divine order. Similarly, the Roman Empire maintained stability by allowing conquered peoples to retain their leadership and religious practices, thus preserving productivity and tax revenue.

Over time, religions adapted to exert control through guilt and moral obligation. The rise of Christianity, with its focus on sin and redemption, proved to be more easily manageable than the pagan beliefs it replaced, allowing for a cohesive social structure that benefitted those in power.

Today, we find ourselves in an era where factions within nations battle against one another, often incited by elites to distract from larger systemic issues. This internal conflict keeps citizens preoccupied, preventing them from recognizing the overarching plans being implemented around them. As societal divisions deepen, people may willingly give up their freedoms in exchange for the promise of safety and security—a longing that elites exploit to retain their grip on power.

As the decline of traditional religions takes hold, the elite remain unmoved, knowing that their true aim is the establishment of a consolidated global governance. Their commitment lies in maintaining control rather than preserving the structures that once unified societies under a moral compass.

The call to action is clear: we must awaken to these manipulations, challenge the narratives that serve only the interests of a few, and fiercely protect our constitutional rights. Embracing critical thinking and seeking the truth beyond the surface can empower us to reclaim our autonomy from those who wish to dictate our lives without our consent.

~Patterns~

~If you choose me, be aware of what you are choosing~

Or

~Patterns~

                If change is inevitable, and actions are choices, then, within the many overlapping cycles of life lives the power of choice. So, by focusing solely on desire, do we miss crucial factors? What would those factors be? Doesn’t the world seem to point out those points too us?

                Repeating cycles means what? Oversights, incompleteness, the lack of perceiving in the entirety. We need to accept that the world we exist in cannot be completely understood. But we as Warriors, Sorcerers, and men of knowledge know that the real objective is not to understand the world but instead to cultivate the awareness to simply handle the world. Understanding is nice, but unnecessary. Handling the world is enough. So simple a concept for an all-encompassing idea.

                Patterns. My repeating pattern seems to be; I meet someone who I find truly interesting. Well not just that, she also seems interested in me. There’s always similar circumstances attached, for example, she has a boyfriend or she’s married or she lives far away or she’s a lesbian or at least something along these lines. Also, she seems to be in need of some sort of “special attention” and consideration of which I am willing and able to provide. I apparently see my role clearly when I find myself “choosing” to engage these individuals and develop a relationship. I meet the woman’s “special attention” and needs and then she moves on, better off for the experience. Problem is this; there is always some love attached. Powerful and unconditional. Specialized to fill the “holes” in the other person. I end up falling in love, ½ knowing that my role is to fulfill their need responsibly. I was granted these gifts, now I’m being called on to use them, seems fair right? Well, I always hope, really hope that this time things will be different. That this time, it will all work out right.

                Now, if there is one point within this “grand enterprise” that can sway the path either way, is it mine to decide? Could my role perhaps be more than just “special attention”, maybe love for me? I meet and become intimate with these lucky ladies in new and exciting ways. I’m always out-doing myself, making them happier and treating them better than anyone ever had. My overall knowledge of their “quirks” which make them unique come thru and they are celebrated. They become a part of me as I give of myself, whatever I am able. This is the “frosting on the cake” that I’ve always dreamt of. See also, I’m forced to over and over again, let these loving, cherished connections go. I realize that everything has its time, but isn’t there a way to have better control over the when and why?

                Clarity would be a must. Detachment and personal depth are necessary to achieve this clarity. These patterns stand as proof rooted in my past that this pattern re-emerges time and time again. It would be wise of me to make use of these experiences and that wisdom can guide me to the clarity I so desperately need.

                Then there is fear. We both inevitably have it. If she is afraid, it would be wise of me to construct situations which reveal safety and security for her. Trying to do this must be fluid and sincere as well as spontaneous, using all the gifts and skills I have at my disposal. Not impossible, but this also must not be more than a guideline for my intent. Anything more would lead me to being less aware of other potentially critical factors.

                I’m afraid too. I’m afraid that I will have to give my love back to God and live in emptiness. Don’t I deserve to be happy? Love is larger than I am. Larger then we are, granted. I really want to feel it again. Not to mention that some help in life would be much appreciated. All too often it resembles a dream of which I am afraid to awake for the fear that she will be gone.

                My role in these situations seem to be akin to the precision of a surgeon utilizing his scalpel. He corrects the undesirable ailment and then moves on to the next.  My hope and desire for love parallels the desire to be as effective and precise as I can be with every healing of every ailment, issue or situation.  Does that mean that love for me is perfect usefulness coupled with an equal exchange of energy with my partner? The appreciation and gratitude expressed to me from my partner means the world to me. That return of energy and caring makes me valuable. It makes me truly happy for as long as it lasts. Without it there can be only loss and pain. With that little offering of thanks, I am fulfilled!

                The world has revealed to me that usefulness is not always found within what we can hold in our hands or found in the actions that we choose. Sometimes, usefulness lives in the empty space. Consider the window in your bedroom. It is the space without which gives it the most value. The water glass-the emptiness within is what offers a vessel for liquids. Am I truly such a container? To be filled up and to nourish the user, only to be discarded once their drink is done? Because relationships and communications are essentially an exchange of personal energy, could awareness guide me to perpetually fulfill the new and inevitable need sure to arise? Assuming that is possible, is it proper? I mean, is that a form of indulgence on my part? Is it a perversion of the gifts and “special abilities” I have been so ingratiated with?

                If I were to choose someone. The one I choose to adore is satisfied over and over again so that she chooses me, over and over again with a fulfilled heart, is that wrong? And I am fulfilled and happy, is that wrong? I guess that depends on perspective. Is it misleading to believe that the concept is even possible? I have no true evidence that it is. Evidence has shown me, time and time again, that once my usefulness is exhausted, I am discarded and replaced with a newer model.

                I learn more and more every time. I hurt….every time, but at least I felt love.

 I am the full cup as well as the empty. But all and all, I am only a cup. A vessel to hold the love and devotion that she needed at the time. Does a cup prefer fullness to emptiness, emptiness to being full? Or is a cup satisfied being an effective vessel for either? I believe that the cups best bet is to be the best cup that he can be! The most widely chosen, practical vessel possible. In that light, I am a very good cup, although sometimes fragile, I keep hot drinks hot and cold ones cold. My usefulness lies both in my full state as well as my empty. I am a champagne glass of crystal and also a rusty canteen. A clay pot and a Ming dynasty vase. My values is the same be me empty or full, hot or cold, clay or crystal, chalice or canteen. But do heed this…..I am not a disposable beer cup, 40 for a dollar. If that’s what you think you see, you should have no problem finding another just like it, for you are sadly mistaken. My power lies within my willingness and availability to be used. So if it is me that you choose, know what you are choosing.

~Steven Zen~

An hour of Therapy

An hour of Therapy

There were three colored stones set in the base of the statue. Each stone was about a fist in size. The one to the left was white in color and rested comfortably underneath the right hand of the statue. The middle stone was a lite, almost milky red and the right one was black as obsidian. The black stone sat under the left hand of the statue. Before the statue stood a make shift alter with various articles placed loosely about it. That is where he found her, Half-kneeling before it. He wondered why she cried. Soft sobs from deep within her, spilling out like blood from a wound, as she let her head fall into her cup shaped hands. He was not sure if she knew whether or not he had discovered her there. Perhaps she remained oblivious due to her curious state, or maybe she didn't care if he was there at all. His uneasiness grew as the time he stood there observing the scene lengthened. He tried to determine if she was making some sort of act of contrition or if she simply sought a means to diminish her silent pain. She had auburn hair which curled upwards at its tips. She wore a blue and white cotton dress which seemed slightly slept in. Her sleeves were very full and they were crimped neatly at the wrist. If he had any knowledge of what or who the statue was, his insight into the moment would have had at least some assistance. He decided to step back into the shadows of the great Corinthian pillars which loomed in the room, observing all the while this dreamlike event unfold…

“That’s enough for today. Next week I’d like you to bring your dream journals with you.”

An hour of therapy goes by so quickly he thought.

Words of Wisdom

-When one realizes that one is a character in someone else's dream, that is self awareness.


-Remembering is so much more psychotic than forgetting.


-Life is not a dream, beware.


-His last words were, please sweep me up.



-Time is a continuous distraction to make us forget that God exists. Time is a constant saying no to Gods invitation to heaven. Life is the moving from the "NO" to the "YES". There is no time, not really, there is only the moment, right now.


-A factor often overlooked or discarded is that to learn or grow to one's fullest potential one must begin when one is empty. Only then can your fullest potential be accessible. 



- A cat does not try to be a cat, and a bird not a bird. Men whose goal is to be what they are not will always be unhappy. Men who are practiced in simply "being themselves" are available to more than the can ever know, and when they greet the unknown, their ally will be joy. 


-Sometimes non-action is the best action of all.


-When a man stops struggling to be more than a man, he becomes more than a man.


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The Core Truths of Spirituality

How to start? How to begin a new blog?  We are taught from day one by our society and our families that there is a beginning. A universe that has both a beginning and an end. That is our syntax. A different Syntax would be to say, there is no beginning. The universe always was, and will forever be. Forever changing and always evolving into something greater, something new. We are always evolving always changing into something new, for we are of the universe. No matter which syntax is your world view, we can agree that we both have a world view and that we are forever changing.

As we observe this ever evolving, ever changing world about us, we constantly speak to ourselves in our minds. We remind ourselves what our perceived rules are. What is in the realm of possibility and simply put, what is not. This consistent, never ceasing internal dialogue continues on. This internal dialogue presents itself as layers upon layers of statements, comments, questions, reflections, feelings, fears and so on. What is the purpose of all this chatter? The reason is this, the internal dialogue acts as a shield of protection for us. It keeps us solid in this ever changing ever evolving universe. At the same time, this internal dialogue prevents us from experiencing, what I call, non-ordinary reality.  By constantly speaking to ourselves and reinforcing our conditioned beliefs, we eliminate the dangers often associated with a more fluid perception. However, if we can engage our WILL, we can change the way we think, about the world and the rules that govern it, then the rules themselves will change. By modifying our internal dialogue, controlling how and what we think, we gain influence over the manifestations all around us.We can reclaim our power and influence.

Whenever someone wants to, say, become closer to God, or begin a new study of any spiritual nature, the first step usually has something to do with meditation. Meditation meaning a series of steps one adopts to help facilitate the quieting of the mind. To relax with a few cleansing breaths. To think about something beautiful in order to help find inner peace. There are so many ways to begin, use whatever works for you. The point is, through this universal method, you quiet your internal dialogue. Many spiritual cultures consider it paramount to achieving any chance at freedom for oneself at all. By slowly acknowledging each thought as it comes to you, without any feeling or judgment, gingerly greet then release each thought as it comes. You should be able to notice at this point, the space between the thoughts. It is in that place, in the silence which exists between those thoughts, where peace exists. Peace in its purest form. It is there where you can eavesdrop on the cosmic consciousness. It is from the silence where creation begins as well as the secrets of the great mystery of the universe itself. 

This act of becoming quiet, by silencing the internal dialogue, is called Stopping the World. At that point you are able to connect yourself to pure potentiality. While in a state of pure potentiality, all possibilities become open to you. All you must do at that point is choose your intent. Intent is something I will discuss further in my next blog. At that point I can begin to show that there are core truths which exist it all factions of spirituality. From Buddhism to Catholicism, from Wicca  to Taoism, Hinduism to Islam. Truth is no longer relative, it is eternal.